shooting stars

Go figure

2011-12-14T23:08:00.001+08:00

Because its love, sexy and magic.

Lets roll out

2011-12-13T23:14:00.001+08:00

Maybe i shall make another blog instead. Catch me if you can.

its my cue to leave

2011-11-20T00:41:00.003+08:00

if only true love exists. maybe its true that it all happens in fairytales and movies. its sad that i didnt get to feel it, to love and to be loved. maybe i did? maybe one day? oh the beautiful mess of love.

maybe all those are empty promises which can never be fulfilled. im sorry but being friends or bestfriend seems somewhat impossible since you never did treat me like that. my heart still yearns for your love. but i know i couldnt get that. until now, i still carry this broken heart of mine but always hoping i could cover up the hurt and the pain.

i now know that i didnt have a place in your life. & fahmy, if you happen to read this, please remember there will be a girl in the world somewhere who will be happy because you are happy.

take care of yourself. our memories will be kept.

with this, its my cue to leave.

not for long

2011-11-10T19:28:00.003+08:00

& the 5 came in not far ago.

sigh.

if you ever know, i miss you.

maybe i shall just leave this place as it is. one day, when im okay.

goodbye for now.

sg flyer

2011-10-31T20:45:00.000+08:00

showing off my photography skill with a

digicam

kthxbai ^^V

2011-10-30T23:33:00.000+08:00

& i kept asking why am i doing this to myself.

POP AH

2011-10-22T00:08:00.002+08:00

this was 8th of October. my buddy finally pop-ed. it was a really tiring day for whats has been happening with what need to wake up early plus watching paintball competition next. for nearly 8 years i've known him, that day was the first time i met his mom plus his aunt. haha ok. thank you for all these years youve been there for me. especially that period of time when im at my lowest. the reason why im always there for you when you needed help.

to all

2011-10-20T22:17:00.003+08:00

dear friends, im really truly sorry if i never reply back your messages or answering your call (this apply to my dm from pictureworks). even if you guys dont even know that this blog exists. because sometimes i just feel like being alone. maybe going through all this alone is far much better than knowing i am troubling you guys. but i really appreciate all the care and concerns. i dont really know how to pull back together. maybe one day.

north-east run

2011-10-20T19:16:00.001+08:00

so i've made up my mind. 7 km it is. my first marathon.

how?

2011-10-20T19:15:00.001+08:00

there's alot of questions in my head which i couldnt answer or needed some answers.

-

2011-10-20T19:07:00.002+08:00

sometimes i wonder if i still matter to you. if you still think about me all the time or youve missed me. somehow all these i know i wouldnt know. no idea whether you still reading this place or my posts are getting more depressing each time. but do know you still are to me. doesnt mean im quiet means ive forgotten about you nor do i not care its just that im giving you time or space that you needed.

hmm hmm

2011-10-18T20:37:00.002+08:00

north-east run, lets go.

im still contemplating whether i should run for fun 4 or open 7. to start small or to see how far i can go. because usually reservoir would be 4.6 but if i want to try 10 next time then i should start training. how now brown cow?

FR

2011-10-16T23:03:00.002+08:00

to that boy i still love and care so much, i am always here for you.

who am i?

2011-10-16T22:55:00.002+08:00

i hate it how i always end my day crying even though i know the day went well. you know, i miss you. yes although we just met on saturday. but i miss us. just us. i miss me, being myself with you. i dont know where the happy-go-lucky part went to. maybe buried under those sadness and hurt. i tend to be more reserved, no idea why too. i dont talk much at work too. i dont know whats becoming of me, i really dont. i feel like someone took the shine away. i feel like that part of me just died. i feel... i feel so helpless now. sigh.

well spent

2011-10-16T12:21:00.001+08:00

because i got busy with work.

& i love my weekends.

sounds of crashing waves

2011-10-09T00:05:00.003+08:00

because i thought i could put up a brave face and pretend im okay. i was greatly wrong. i breakdown again in the middle of brunch. like i know myself i didnt have the appetite so i didnt eat much, excused myself and found a spot on the breakwater. i didnt have to be there to get the waterworks running. i was thinking of jumping in the water thinking if im underneath, it would just drown my thoughts away or would it be louder? i know i was there for too long before faris and zara came up to me. i was ashamed but i was even more disappointed in myself for letting them seeing me like this. im sorry if i didnt talk i tried to hide. but i appreciate what both of you did to me. you know me well enough. you know i am still in love with him. you know im hurting inside too. im not giving up my friend, ill wait. for this love is getting stronger than before.

-

2011-10-08T02:05:00.000+08:00

sorry for all the depressing post. come again next time when im all okay.

2011-10-08T01:58:00.004+08:00

browsing through pictures. we both looked so happy in all of them. but somehow it made me smile.

i came across this

2011-10-08T00:11:00.002+08:00

"Love is a funny thing. You expect it to be easy. You expect it to be a world of roses and laughs and perfect moments that you find only in movies. You expect him to always say the right thing, and always know exactly how you feel, or exactly how to react to it. You expect him to calm you down when you’re yelling or to chase you when you run away. You expect so much that you feel entirely, and utterly defeated when something doesn’t exactly match up with all your plans. But that’s the thing. Love isn’t a plan. It doesn’t have a certain beginning and it certainly has no end or visible finish line to those deeply in it. Love happens; it is so incredibly messy. People around you can’t comprehend why you do the things you do, or why you fight so hard for something that seems to cause you so much pain, because simply, they can’t see. They can’t see the invisible ring of insanity that surrounds you when you’re in love. It’s inconvenient and painful and devastating at times, but we can’t live without it. What you don’t learn is how hard love is. How much work it takes. How much of ourselves we have to put into it. How it isn’t worth it until we are complete and utter idiots about it. Love isn’t him calming you down when you yell. It’s him yelling, just as loud, just as hard, right back at you, right in your face to wake you up and to keep you grounded. It isn’t him bringing you roses everyday or cute things that make your relationship appear more presentable. It’s after a long fight, that drains the life and bones right out of you both, and yet him showing up at your door the next morning anyway. It’s not him saying all the right things or knowing exactly how to handle you. So no, it’s not him caressing your hair and telling you everything is going to be alright. It’s him standing there, admitting he’s just as scared as you are. You have to remember that with love, you’re not the only one involved. You’ve unknowingly put your life, your heart into the palms of another persons hands and said, here. Do what you will. Mash it into mince meat. Or forget I ever handed it to you. As long as you have it. It makes us crazy. It makes reality invisible and it erases all the lines that we shouldn’t cross. Because love isn’t about fencing ourselves in; feeling safe, feeling sure about the future. It’s about scaring the shit out of every nerve in our body, but pushing forward anyway. Because all the fighting and all the tears and all the uncertainty is worth it. And it’s a hell of a lot better, than being 100% happy without someone to show us that there is a world of a difference between feeling ‘happy’ and feeling whole."

-http://liszelallyjais.livejournal.com/38691.html

(i just want to share what ive just read. so whatever at the top doesnt belongs to me but to a person whose link ive stated)

pop + paintball

2011-10-07T23:18:00.002+08:00

going to put up a brave face just for tmr. buddy's going for pop and after that his competition. i can pull this through. i hope. sometimes i just couldnt bear letting my friends seeing me in this condition and i feel like staying at home to hide.

stays the same

2011-10-07T23:08:00.002+08:00

"im sitting here all by myself just trying to think of something to do.

trying to think of something, anything just to keep me from thinking of you.

but you know its not working out cuz youre all thats on my mind.

one thought of you is all it takes to leave the rest of the world behind."

-a lonely september

its the 4th yesterday. i still love you, always.

2011-10-07T15:01:00.001+08:00

new found job.

-

2011-10-07T01:11:00.002+08:00

and now i woke up with a heavy heart. i carry it everywhere i go. dear god please help me through this because i couldnt bear the pain inside me. it hurts so bad i couldnt breathe. i couldnt face a day without crying. i couldnt walk not facing down. i cant help it.

no im not okay. i forgot how to eat. i forgot how to sleep peacefully. i forgot to wake up not feeling this pain. i forgot how to stop the tears. my mind it goes blank at one point and fuzzy at another. it will come crashing back again and there i go again.

i just feel like staying home sometimes. im not stable to go out. i just want to curled up into a ball and cry my hearts out. can i run? run away as far as possible. run to the world with no emotions no feeling so that i wouldnt have to go through this every day. so i wouldnt know whats hurt. whats tears.

breakeven

2011-10-07T01:02:00.001+08:00

what am i supposed to do when the best part of me was always you.

what am i supposed to say when im all choked up & youre okay.

im falling to pieces.

-

2011-10-06T01:22:00.003+08:00

the only person i need now is my bestfriend. thank you for always being there for me. thank you for coming all the way to my workplace just to check whether im fine. you know how im feeling, you know my condition now. thank you for your ears because i couldnt go through this alone. i feel grateful to have you. i love you very much. im really sorry if i got you all worried just now. im fine, no scratch no nothing. partly my fault because i was rushing to cross the road, i didnt saw the taxi coming to a stop. the bus blocked my view. i was too closed. but nothing happen. should have seen the driver's face.

-

2011-10-05T01:12:00.002+08:00

no matter how much ive said im not sure if you understand my feelings now. im not as strong as you think i am. i am weak. i dont know where did i go wrong. youre happy with me yet at the same time youre not. i understand that now you need time for yourself. yes ill give you time. yes we'll take things slowly. if youre happy with me and do love me, im not letting you go. why. why keep on saying that i deserve better when its you that have been the best for me. its not fair to me. its just. not. fair.

passport photo

2011-09-30T01:48:00.001+08:00

HAHAHA I FREAKING UPLOAD THIS FOR AIR ASIA.

ok tak perlu ah the face but i dont have any other choice do i? and its the only picture with my teeth showing. i didnt know they were recruiting as well.

-

2011-09-28T04:05:00.001+08:00

oh hey ya.

okay bye.

5 mins with me

2011-09-26T01:46:00.001+08:00

like long time neh update this place. anyway anyway going to marina barrage later, after so long. mind you, its work. but then again i dont know what im suppose to do. meh.

so im nearly getting prepared for the interview. still need to do afew more stuffs.

finally, im still looking for job.

ok last last, why adidas pay not in yet. rawr!

long & straight III

2011-09-22T03:44:00.001+08:00

i suddenly miss my long straight brown hair. actually just the brown ah. i should dye my hair brown. soon. in a few months time. haha. okay can.

feeling feeling

2011-09-21T16:04:00.001+08:00

i was bored enuff to do this. hee.

open happiness

2011-09-20T01:39:00.004+08:00

how dyou like my tribal painting? hehe. credits to mary!

so its family day over at sentosa. i was practically early because i didnt slept a wink. how to sleep when im suppose to wake up at 530am and my sleeping time is 6am. tell me how. but thank god helly was there when im done buying my breakfast. danny fetched all of us with a big van. face painted once we were there. helped out here and there but mostly the drink stall. lunch was hectic because they came all at once. caught sambateria performing too. had ice-cream, popcorn, nachos, cotton candy, coke coke coke and more coke. until i dont feel like drinking them anymore. everything end at 130pm and helped out with the tear down. washed up and cabbed to vivo with fahmy khai and zul. banquet for another lunch for them. the rest head home while i made my way to town to meet the others for ana's chalet.

anyway i came to conclude that i didnt sleep for 36 hours. like seriously who in the world would do that. beside me of course. i rewarded myself with 12 hours of sleep after that. heh.

oh yeah raya

2011-09-20T01:28:00.003+08:00

raya outing with nadine and co. haha. and im deeply sorry that me and fahmy were late on that day. but i had a great time with you guys, really. though some i may not know but theyre fine. & its my first time raya-ing with them cept for nadine that is. first time with him too, and we went pink because he didnt buy white. booo~! they were happy when it comes to my house because theres food. hehe. but after that all we did was to eat and eat. we end the day with sparklers at woodlands. thats the wrap!

i rest my case

2011-09-20T01:21:00.002+08:00

okay i have alot to update about but i didnt have the time to come around and do it.

maybe during raya outing its nice to meet friends who you never see for quite some time but when that happens again im so not going to follow. learnt my lesson. its so fucking annoying when one have a car and drives but doesnt fits all. and some of us need to take a public transport. like seriously ah. its that what you called jalan raya? and no im not jealous that you drives or you get to ride blablabla. i dont care whoever of you read it but the bottomline is its fucking annoying. period.

fly me to the moon

2011-09-14T03:56:00.004+08:00

okay finally i did my homework. and i hope by 1st october i am confident enough to face the interview. now ive seen the possible qns i kind of have a better idea of what kind of scenarios they would be giving and i hope its not hard. cross fingers, feet and eyes.

okay so here's what i found out.3 rounds of interviews like what everyone said.

1st round a group of 10, introduction and some questions. if selected move on to kebaya fitting and skin check. yes skin check D: forever not confident with this.

2nd will be 1 to 1 and possible scenarios qns.

lastly 2 to 1 another introduction and more qns.

thats some tough interviews. pfft. i hope the scenario qns will be like what to do if someone faints or having a headache or you spilled a drink. not those if fire break out or engine failure or something like that my mind would goes blank. cept maybe i can dig out what they did when i watched air crash investigations. heh.

anyway, i did more than 30 possible qns on the internet. one qn that made me huh was who designed the kebaya. like seriously? huh? o.O its Pierre Balmain if you wanna know.

k who can accompany me to ensure i wouldnt turn back and go home? heee

family day

2011-09-13T23:09:00.002+08:00

another event by mastereign (c'ignature) will be held on saturday! i dont know why i got excited after hearing that the client will be coca-cola. like you know coca-cola is more of the well known company. rather than the previous family day i dont even know who or which was that for. plus it will be at sentosa. cant get any better. & from what i know it will be overwhelming. a massive 1000 guests will be there, i guess. oh yes they are celebrating 125 anni though. mehehe.

sooooooooooooooooo its gonna be fun!

raya raya raya

2011-09-10T02:57:00.002+08:00

YAY! CANNOT WAIT FOR RAYA WITH ALL OF THEM LATER ON!

oh oh and its the first time raya-ing with them plus babylove. teehee. so sexcited. the theme for tmr will be pink! and i cannot decide whether to make it straight or stay curly. ah see how la later. meh.

first hand

2011-09-09T03:43:00.002+08:00

i remember this. my first 20th birthday spent in bintan. as you all know my purpose of going bintan is doing camp. so yes i was conducting camp for pioneer sec. awesome buddy got me a tub of ice cream instead and they surprised me right after i got out from the showers. i know we were having dragonboat that day. ended well with a whole lot of wishes from the kids and teachers as well. not forgetting those in singapore that gave me a text, which i cant reply.

tgif!

2011-09-09T03:20:00.003+08:00

so its friday finally. so what should i do today? hmmmmmm. the boy's booking out and i just hope to meet him. not until just now, ever since he mentioned it, that i realized i havent met him since eve of raya. last week got burned because of raya. and i was busy with work this week so as him. thats why time passes so fast, i guess.

anyway he perangai annoying called me up and hang up a few seconds later. and so as the second time round. oi dont like this can not?! purposely sia you. tsk.

another side, perhaps?

2011-09-08T04:10:00.003+08:00

HAHA I CAN SERIOUSLY PASS LOOKING LIKE A GUY.

cept with a touch of feminine features. so any girls out there interested in me cuz i look fine looking like a butch.

HAHA OKAY IM KIDDING.

bai ^^V

favs

2011-09-08T03:59:00.000+08:00

budak damai

2011-09-07T02:57:00.002+08:00

miss these bunch. its been long since we last met. and that was even longer till we met.

until next time guys. we all grew up already. so fast.

always on food

2011-09-07T02:36:00.002+08:00

oh yes! i was late for work because i was finding for my dinner earlier. a quick walk to suntec for mcd. you know i've been working there closing to 8 months and the only thing i can eat is popeyes. yes singapore flyer has limited food choices. plus the food trail there only have one malay stall and its damn expensive. pathetic right. so i dont care late or not for tmr im going to get ljs for dinner at paya lebar. hah.

this or that

2011-09-07T02:32:00.003+08:00

i hope my adidas pay is enuff to get me an iPod or iPhone4. ahhh im still contemplating on which should i get. or should i even get one? i dont know. or should i wait longer? or should i use that money to get something else instead. okay the mind is not deciding.

so which should i get?

friday starbucks

2011-09-07T01:10:00.002+08:00

more of this soon because i love chilling with you girls/guys talking anything but nothing. & yes thats the day i decided to chop off my hair. whoop! natural curls me love. dinner was at 18 chefs and i ate the same thing forever not changing. i dont know whyyyyyy. chilled at starbucks then moved to mccafe at pasir ris. double chocolate for me finallehhhh! anyway i came back and down with fever. ah not funny this one. pfft.

seriously serious

2011-09-02T02:44:00.004+08:00

i seriously dont know what to do with my life. i dont even know what i want in life. wait i know. i want to earn money and travel around the world. but something stopping that and thats my parents. sucks much. need i remind them that i no longer 12. if only i have that freedom i would work my ass off and did that few months ago.

its so frustrating that im neither here nor there. not schooling. not working. its even more frustrating when your own parents said that im plain lazy to find work. fuck that. fuck that fucking bullshit because i have been finding. ive asked around. you people said it so easy then shut up and give me one damn interview. i dont know that is it me who is so damn unlucky that none called me back. im not even picky. give me anything that has nothing to do with my diploma and ill take it.

actually i am surviving with my recent job. but thats not enough for future purposes, i think. ah no point getting all mad.

believe it or not

2011-09-02T01:11:00.001+08:00

regardless, to tell you the truth, youre the best ive ever had.

promises

2011-09-02T01:00:00.003+08:00

because ive promised to be his bestfriend if we were to never happen.

but will you promise me if anything were to happen to us, dont leave me.

raya kaya

2011-09-02T00:40:00.002+08:00

little iman came early in the afternoon. he will be forever cute ah. with that curls, face like ang moh, so cheeky i like.

oh yah so how's raya? its been great. first house at bukit batok and attacked the sambal udang. fuhh. shiok gila. chilled with the cousin and my aunt. eat and eat and eat non-stop. then off to bedok south late afternoon. i swear by this time im so cranky. i stoned and kept quiet. oh didnt i tell you, i never sleep on the eve of raya. i tried to after my brothers came back from prayers. oh well. got back, changed and sleep for an hour before another guest came.

and the second day i skipped work on the very last minute and followed my mom for raya instead. -.-! so much for diarrohea. haha. visited my fav uncle at ttsh, glad that he's fine.

YAY! even though im tua bangka already with no school no work i still receive green hang bao hor. okay maybe not as much as last time but still have. finally i did received a blue note from nenek (: oi happy ah abeh.

okay cannot wait for saturday or sunday outing!

syawal is here

2011-08-30T00:54:00.004+08:00

so finally they day has come.

selamat hari raya to everyone out there who reads my blog. i seek forgiveness from you physically and spiritually.

FR: yes i know ive made alot of mistakes. i know in many ways ive disappointed you, make you mad, hurt you, worry, punch you, kick you, lick you or bite you too. with this great month of syawal, i seek from you forgiveness. for as i know im just a human being who is not perfect. i love to joke and tease you too, dont take it too hard okay. WAIT. i know im so annoying some times, i meant alot of times, that you just couldnt take it, im sorry too. but i know ill be forever annoying ah. hee. for many more days, months or even years to come. love you baby!

girlfriends: you know i love to joke around. maybe it may be too overboard that i didnt realize or any sarcastic remarks that i made that hurt you. sorry for all that. dont worry, next time i do again. okay just joking. heehee. for all of you who have been there for me i thank you alot. i treasure all of you. i know some of you are busy with works, schools or anything else. hope our friendship will still be the same. see you prettyheads soon!

buddy: thank you for being there for me through thick and thin. sorry if im such an annoyance to you. i know, forever. nevertheless, youre one friend i could count on. not the one that i know will come and go.

i think im done. i know veh long. hee.

hope you guys have a kickass awesome day later on! i know im pretty much excited for this. even though old already, no money given but theres always food and the kuihs for me to feast on.

because baby i love you

2011-08-29T04:42:00.002+08:00

thankful to still get to be with you. no more of that because i dont think my heart can handle all that again. to be honest i can get to that depression state. i know its not all the same, same. but i will try to gain that back from you. on a lighter note, ramadhan with you has been blissful. i think your tummy also very happy. eat eat and eat. & its nice to get to know your siblings and relatives too. now i cannot wait for raya with you. insyaallah.

ucapan minta maaf next post k. heeeee.

here come syawal!

2011-08-29T04:32:00.003+08:00

so its been a month already. & todays the last day of fasting month. alhamdulilah im able to make it through. only missed out the first 3 days. dont know why this years one, its kind of fast. and the next thing you know its hari raya. how awesome right. and i still cant believe i can survive without sahur. heh.

anyway i cannot wait for hari raya! not the money because i know im not able to receive with the fact that im no longer a student. but the food! all the delicious awesome feast im waiting for. and a get together with all my relatives. cant wait to raya with friends too. insyaallah with FR also (: eh dont forget the kuihs! omg hungry. i will only find a certain kuihs in people house. i only look for honey cornflakes, choc chips and macaroons. hehe.

OKAY LESS THAN 24 HOURS!

so screwed

2011-08-27T04:08:00.002+08:00

seriously my body clock is really screwed ever since stock take. it got all adjusted to a night person. i only sleep at 6 or 7 the latest. i can even see the sky brighten up. when the house are all awake i was just about to sleep. tell me about it. sucks much. the whole reason why i kept on waking up in the late afternoon. but then again only slept for like what 8 hours or so.

cinta

2011-08-26T02:04:00.002+08:00

when everything turns grey, youll be my sunshine to brighten things up.

love you, always.

to the sleepless nights

2011-08-26T01:51:00.000+08:00

FR

2011-08-25T00:22:00.002+08:00

have you ever look back at the memories we shared. even though it was a few months but the things we shared or did together are beautiful. did it ever make you smile to yourself, even a tiny smile would mean something. have you ever read all those previous conversations and laugh it out because theyre just so full of nonsense stuff.

well i did. it may all seems stupid but thats how i know how much you mean to me. to remind me how it all started, how weve been through and everything else.

the only thing that i want and need now is you. i believe we can go far and i dont believe that leaving is the only solution for solving problems. the only reason for me to stay.

by now, you should know my answer.

II

2011-08-24T03:22:00.000+08:00

sometimes when i know i have alot of friends i still feel lonely.

im fine, really

2011-08-23T23:25:00.002+08:00

open facebook. open twitter. 5 minutes later close everything back. sigh. i just dont have the mood for anything. i didnt even eat my burger when i want it so much in the first place. ive tried, ive tried making myself busy. my room, the kitchen, laundry then baking. but at one point it will always came crashing back at me again and i feel so helpless. im tired and mentally exhausted. the body wants to rest but the mind said the otherwise. another sleepless night perhaps.

i feel like skipping work tmr. no wait, i think it will help. can i just stay at home and be a loser instead.

so far so good

2011-08-23T14:48:00.002+08:00

to think that i would actually go this far. 3 months ago i was afraid but at the same time excited too. i was really nervous when it came to outside driving. to me, 50km/hr was way to fast. but now, like pro ah. ceh okay bluff. my driving sometimes still sucks ah. but getting better each time. crank & S course, directional change and slope were such a breeze just now. but then again, afterwards ill be so blur and all will be disorganised. haha. afew more practicals left to end of module 3. alhamdulilah. im able to book my TP already. but moms kind of short due to granddad was hospitalized the other day. so its going to be on hold for awhile now. oh wells.

cheat my feeling only

2011-08-23T04:16:00.002+08:00

i thought for the first time in how many weeks i felt sleepy. its 4 am btw. but i was wrong. i think its just my eyes which a tad bit swollen and there's this burning sensation every time i blink. that prolly makes the eyelids heavy. oh well. how could i even sleep with my mind that wouldnt shut up.

I

2011-08-23T01:23:00.001+08:00

sometimes i wonder why am i such a weakling. like seriously i fucking hate this thing in me.

from the bottom of my heart

2011-08-23T01:14:00.000+08:00

im sorry, really.

changed of mind

2011-08-23T01:08:00.002+08:00

i jot down my feelings on a paper because i dont have my laptop with me. i thought of typing here again but i guess not. who would read it anyway.

i think leave it there would be better.

attack of the curls

2011-08-22T02:04:00.000+08:00

AWWWH DO WE LOOK LIKE SISTERS. TEEHEE.

break fast #3

2011-08-22T01:51:00.002+08:00

another weekend with him and his nursing friends. uhm no idea why no pictures of them. oh well. wanted to watch him kick balls but i slept at 7am and i was still sleepy at 1 so i continue my sleep. thought of fetching him but at 4 im still on my bed how like that. haha. ended up meeting him at lavender. break fast at beach road and we had mutton steak and sup tulang. yumyum.

he wanted to watch horrible bosses so we head to iluma for the 925 show.

while waiting we had marble slab creamery! this awesome ice cream which i forgot the name. it had chopped mars bars in it. and chocolate milkshake for him. sinful sinful dessert. well the show was good. we had the second row from the front. no idea why theres alot of people.

lastly, awesome time with him.

plank everywhere #2

2011-08-21T02:59:00.000+08:00

break fast #2

2011-08-21T02:40:00.002+08:00

this was last weekend too. it was a sunday. peninsula in search of his soccer boots. black & yellow still looks nice. and well you can sing black&yellow black&yellow black&yellow while kicking some balls. heh. marina square for break fast. finally secret recipe! and i had tom yum again -.- ikr but damn its awesome. walked around before heading to cck and sent him off there. WAIT! we, i meant him had second round and tried the black pepper mcgrill. but i still prefer prosperity burger though.

break fast #1

2011-08-21T02:33:00.002+08:00

this was last weekend. last minute with faris. feels like as though we're not fasting cuz we've been walking to everywhere. like seriously. with our fickle minds we couldnt decide on where to eat. after much contemplating we end up with lerk thai. ordered dishes instead. got my tom yum soup. then theres lemon chicken and sweet sour beancurd. awesome shiokness.

my hearts a stereo

2011-08-21T02:32:00.000+08:00

it beats for you so listen close

younger days

2011-08-17T02:32:00.001+08:00

awwwwwh. dont we looked so young here. haha.

i can pass as a cabin crew right right? no?

adidas

2011-08-16T22:55:00.003+08:00

another round of stock take yesterday night. this time its at suntec. i thought joining alone might be boring and will feel so left out. but its the other way round. it can be quite fun when you know the people there. and especially when they are from the previous stock. apart from doing the job which in this case damn boring. beepbeep is like music to my ears. i did it alone so yes you hafta count and scan by your ownself. meh. and in between where we will be waiting for the numbers to tally thats when its more fun. club music on speakers and theyll be dancing around. and this was what 4 or 5 in the morning. pizzas for sahur like seriously which is damn awesome. suntec wasnt as big as vivo so we end early!

last one tomorrow night. awwwwwh. & thats it then.

fierce siolzxz

2011-08-15T00:59:00.001+08:00

FIERCE NOT?! HAHA

side-shaved, i miss you alot. gahhhhh

superheroes

2011-08-14T15:22:00.001+08:00

can i have a gathering with them soon? or maybe a dinner for break fast. fasting month is coming to an end. which is damn fast like really. just 15 days left!

i miss them trainers :(

it was saturday

2011-08-14T14:05:00.003+08:00

the feeling whereby youve been blamed when you did nothing wrong just sucks. seriously sucks. its saddening really. to be honest yes im still hurt. but then again i always try to put that aside. and i managed to really put up a smile when i was out with faris. i dont know what else to do if it wasnt for him. thank you for going out with me even though it was so last minute and you were so shagged. although we roamed around with no sense of directions. actually sitting down anywhere would just be fine because we have so much to catch up with. and dayummm we really had a feast and i was so bloated i feel like throwing up. ugh.

nadineeeeeeeeee

2011-08-14T04:20:00.001+08:00

hi nadine. me miss you!

-

2011-08-14T03:46:00.001+08:00

YEP HI HELLO THATS ME.

long & straight II

2011-08-11T03:16:00.000+08:00

I FREAKING MISS THIS HAIR.

KNITEBAI!

cinta

2011-08-11T03:11:00.001+08:00

its your imperfections that i fell in love with.

infinity & beyond

2011-08-11T02:51:00.004+08:00

you know its so scary yet at the same time so funny when youre talking about marriage. yes, of all things. THAT. & the conversation got me giggling. whats with the 1.8 i can use it for M. okay lemme use the letter M, because just pronouncing got me the goosebumps. that 1.8 i think for myself only lor. hahaha. like seriously. and you with your who i am going to M-ing with. when i said its you, you gave the sure or not doubts. and blablabla i cannot talk about it more because its so -_______-! memeh ah. too young to plan all these. DONT TELL ME YOUVE NEVER THINK OF THIS BEFORE ESP THE FEMALES OUT THERE. HAHAHA. PFFT.

okay let say if i got the job, finally i can get myself an iPhone4. and if i could last for that 4 months and wouldnt want to continue further. guess im going to stop and try for my flight instead. i. really. want. to. try. this. badly. only that i dont have the confidence to do it. plus you got a whole load of 3.5 in you pocket. dayummmmmmm.

ah fug, am i really thinking ahead thattttt ahead. well besides the first paragraph which is all nonsense la actually. okay maybe im just listing all the possibilities.

IM GOING TO LAUGH MY ASS OFF WHEN I READ THIS BACK IN THE FUTURE. WHAT AM I THINKING LIKE SERIOUSLY IQAH :O

job offer!

2011-08-11T00:59:00.002+08:00

interview in the morning later. geez. i hope its a job that im able to do. if not also, im able to learn. but i hope its not boring. hahaha. okay well ive asked for 1.8 since im a diploma holder but she said she gonna asked the boss first or something. i dont mind 1.7 though. so its a 4 months contract with Infotech. sadly, i couldnt get to know more on this company cause the website just sucks or brokedown or something. tsk. well well just hope i could do my best during the interview because i know im not prepared for anything. oh wellzxz.

sentosaaaaaaaa

2011-08-10T02:28:00.002+08:00

I WANNA GO SENTOSA AND SWIM SWIM.

CAN I CAN I?

PRETTY PLEASE WITH A CHERRY ON TOP

*puppyface*

web sms

2011-08-09T02:57:00.002+08:00

well this is what happen when you left your phone at someones car. and finding ways just to say goodnight till the extend of making an account for this. hahaha. i swear singtel is so troublesome please. but teehee i did a good job on that. kthxbai.

kinect

2011-08-09T02:02:00.001+08:00

this is like the awesome shitzxz lor. damn i wanna play kinect dance.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

hansum guy

2011-08-07T17:44:00.000+08:00

i have a mustache. you like?

-

2011-08-07T04:24:00.001+08:00

my blog like photo gallery already. can become photo blog. haha k no.

abg polisi

2011-08-07T04:19:00.002+08:00

i feel like biting and pinching his cheeeeeeeks prease!

so fluffy and round i like. heeee.

second

2011-08-06T03:18:00.001+08:00

looks like we're on a rollercoaster when its just in a taxi.

dayummmm i looked freaking dark and he looked so young with hair.

haha.

but whatever it is, happy two (:

F, F, F & F?

2011-08-05T16:42:00.002+08:00

gonna meet faris omar later! plus fazwan, only that he's still sleeping like a pig. pfft. hopefully farhana too or fazhli. miss these people (: hi, where we breaking fast anyway?

i need to find new friends that doesnt start with a F. seriously ah.

eh hi

2011-08-05T03:00:00.001+08:00

gua kangen banget sama lu sih.

sayang kau banyakbanyak (:

long & straight

2011-08-05T02:46:00.001+08:00

can i say that i miss this hair? hee

local students

2011-08-04T23:59:00.000+08:00

KIDDOS AT SD 011!

ayam penyet

2011-08-04T00:31:00.000+08:00

lunch after a trip to a local school in bintan.

lifesmith adventure

2011-08-03T22:05:00.000+08:00

awesome trainers from christ church sec 3s.

ferry ride

2011-08-03T21:57:00.000+08:00

3 days down

2011-08-03T21:51:00.002+08:00

so fast 3 days has passed. 8 more months and sigh. anyway sides that, 26 more days to raya! hahahahaha.

i want to break fast with the usuals, the trainers and FR especially. in this month, patience plays a big part. so all i can do is. wait.

Ramadhan

2011-07-31T23:51:00.002+08:00

august. i know its going to be a beautiful month with ramadhan going on. though i cant for the first few days, ill be joining soon enuff. plus first ramadhan with the boyfriend (: awesome much.

this was the worst

2011-07-31T23:48:00.002+08:00

down with suspected food poisoning. so what i had vomitting diarrhoea and fever the next day after bintan. then it was fine. and down with high fever cough and flu. all that for 6 days really sucked. the reason why its so quiet here. all better now just left with coughing. (:

BINTAN TRIP

2011-07-20T01:35:00.003+08:00

pioneer sec 3 normal academic

ria bintan

15-17 july 2011

60 paxs, 5 trainers

first day, before we reached ria bintan, lunched over at garuda. packed the day bags and got ourselves ready for a hike at gunung bintan.

we were doing our stretches and thennnnn comes the rain. its not the drizzle type. more of the heavy, stop, heavy again throughout the climb. i swear i was freezing, shivering all the way. all were drenched from head to toe. its a nice cold weather but dang too cold to climb.

the second day was more of bonding with the local kids. amazing race was cancelled last minute because it was raining again. so we had an amount of time at the orphanage. i had a great time here. i found my new favourite kid. the first that came up to me and greeted. then ask for a lift. it was heartbreaking because they might be thinking that we're here to take them to a brand new home with family. they might not have any family but they were happy. even happier when we were there. one came up to me and asked why we brought so little people since weve been there with alot more. then when going back another came asked we are going home already. i replied yes and said i might be coming back again next week. he said am i going to bring the same students back. you see they really bonded well and i felt sad. and what surprised me most was the hunks who cried in the end. thats like whoahhhh.

anyway off to landfill and i got to see Hendrik! played catching with him was fun. the others were not there since they were having school. meh. ayam penyet afterwards followed by a karaoke session with my class in the bus until ria binta

the last day. dragonboat in the morning. which my boat won afew races. they rowed like a pro. hehe. washed up and to pasar oleh-oleh for lunch and their own time there. more of the chill chill time. no need to rush, relax and enjoy the last bits of moment before heading back to sg.

it doesnt end there. rushed to cck to meet my botakboy (: had curly fries finally and then see him off. heee.

train of thoughts

2011-07-20T00:54:00.003+08:00

im thankful ive met a friend during my last lap of tp. because this person taught me quite a handful of stuffs. actually by just listening to the stories it kept me thinking and reflecting. im the type of person who is so attached to my partner. im not clingy but just wants to be a part of it. i think i have big ego. maybe aries ah idk. but its hard for me to give in. but now i see myself changing. ive put more effort on it. i learnt to give some space and to understand more. when i see that theres no point in sulking why do? fuck yes i have a fucking weak heart which sometimes i get all frustrated at it. i can cry on small little things and i dont have any idea why. until now, idk how to change this area. though we no longer in contact. thanks for sharing. it changed how i look things at.

i didnt tell him but i was quite upset when i chose friday but he rolled instead when theres saturday for him. yes i may sound that pathetic. but then again why get all mad or stop him when thats what he love to do. i have to be more supportive. it may be boring just sitting at the side if can i want to join too but idk how. but there are others to look at also. eh no ah? hahaha. k joking. -.- serious.

and those messages, it caught me by surprise. like seriously. i sat under the mrt tracks at eunos just to digest it. honestly if can, i dont agree with it. but who am i to stop you. i want to go far with you the reason why im trying to change. i trust you regarding that and i hope you wouldnt take advantage of it. at the end of the day when its i whom you love, youll stay till the end. sayang kau bodoh. (:

20th Swensens

2011-07-19T16:43:00.002+08:00

the other day she treated me to swensens for post birthday. thank you sister (: i had a great time catching up with you. more of this soon!